A letter from a concerned member: How does this whole episode make me feel

To be honest and direct - I feel sick to my stomach. I try to read the TTG's website and the comments every other day. After reading the comments especially - these people claiming to be Christ-Like and Christians (those who are bound to base their actions on the Bible) is sickening. You will get a feeling in your stomach that is similar to the feeling you get before throwng up. All sort of questions will start popping up in your mind - is these people really Christians? At the end of it, a feeling of despair and anger will settle in, every couple of days I will need to kneel down and pray - God please remove all the bitterness and negativity from me.

As I think about the church's leader - the pastors, BOD, and etc, they have not really been forthcoming with information either. So can I blame them for not revealing information as and when I want them? So can I go on a accusation spree saying all sort of words against the church pastors whom I have looked upon for many many years? Never I will never do that.

As I ponder more about the situation, a thought came into my mind, what is a Pastor to be like? A pastor means a shepherd. They are suppose to tend to the sheeps and it's needs, the sheeps are naive. The pastor's role is to ensure that the sheep's attention is always re-aligned to Jesus - not the shepherd themselves. Does this means that the pastors are not accountable? You see, in every believers life, when he or she accept Jesus, they look upon the pastors the same way they look upon Jesus but slowly and surely they pastor is duty bound to direct the attention/focus to Lord Jesus, this is call discipleship. If the pastors are doing this excellently, should they answer and make a stand for each and every accusations thrown at them? Then what would it become of the church? A political party? Where people can swicth sides and there's team a, team b and maybe a team c working in the backgound?

The whole church will go into a downwards spiral, losing all objective and purpose - there will be visible infighting, voilence and sabotages. The end will be not far for that church.

I believe this is what my pastors and the BOD deacons are doing and I thank God for such wisdom. I just hope and pray that people will not get into the teaching of the TTG and will re-focus on God and continue running the race to the finish line.